It's been a while...

so I figured I would update this page. Well, let me just start with, what a year this has been already! I have experienced some the most emotional, dramatic, and straining events in my life this year (and it is only April).

Anyone who has read this blog knows the first one. Second one... The illness and death of my grandmother. As sad as this is, I am willing to accept and celebrate this because I understand that this is how life works. My grandmother was an incredibly strong woman and has more life experiences than one can point a stick at. She created a beautiful and intelligent family who cared for and respected her. Thus, I celebrate this loss. It definitely hurt to see her go, especially because I came to realize how much I wish I knew her better... but life goes on.

Then the sudden death of my cousin. This has taken a lot of tolls on me. Anger, depression, disgust, pain, confusion, regret... the list goes on. With out going into the details of this event one can imagine that the life of a family member, a friend, a childhood playmate just being stripped away instantly is incredibly painful. I have grieved because of this more than ever before.

Now, from all these events I take what I can away from them. I learn what I can. I understand the frailty of life more and more yet I refuse to fear it. I love my family and friends more than ever. I am getting closer to understanding that the time is now, and the place is here. Emotions come and go, so I try to express them when I can. Just enjoy it while you have it and share it when you can.